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Today I slept in until about 3:00 until Tonya called and told me that I needed to watch the girls until Shawn got there. She told me about Kayla winning a coloring contest in the Salem Wal*Mart and she won a $10 gift card. I thought it was cool. Then, after she left I found Tonya's porn on her computer and watched 'em, and ironically I had already seen one of them. What's that tell ya? 2 hours after Shawn was supposed to get here, he got here. He picked them up and took them away and when I went upstairs, dad was just walking in with chinese food. I ate and Mike called to tell me he was off probation and to come hang out with him. When I got there he was playing guitar in the garage and we jammed out a few songs. After that, we went inside and played some game on PS2 that was like Gauntlet Legends and then Conker Reloaded on XBOX. Then we went to Sheetz and he bought me more cigarettes and we went to Jenn's so he could smoke pot. Jessika and Lee were there and it created a weird environment. Jessika looks rough. Anyways, the girls got back home before I started to head back and Mike made me take him back home and when I got there I took them downstairs and gave them milk and they fell asleep. Tonya gave me $10 for halfway watching them and then I went out driving. I drove downtown and down Williamson and stopped at Derick's. We hung out in front of his house with him and Dana and her creepy friend. Derick's parents wouldn't let him go out since it was midnight but he took Dana home while I left to come back home. Since then I've been here, just being here.

I'm finally gonna start taking steps toward getting rid of friends. I already put something on my other journal about Tara being on my list and whatnot. I haven't talked to Maggie in a while. I'll wait for her to talk to me before I try to talk to her. I'm just a-fed up with life. Hopefully I'll die soon.